Hello sweet reader! (read that in the tune of "Sweet Creature")
Halloween is approaching. Cue the scary music, bring out ghouls and goblins, and get the costumes!
I am a big fan of any excuse to dress up. I absolutely love it. I will say however, sometimes dressing up is not always a big fan of me.
I have this weird thing where I buy all sorts of clothes, for a body that unfortunately looks nothing like mine. I love to purchase clothing for someone much smaller than I, then I go home, after building up a ton of anticipation, try on the clothes and then try not to freak out when things are too tight, won't zip, and won't button.
It causes this intense spiral of "welp, I am disgusting and a freak and weird" and then suddenly i am hating everything I own and everything I am. EUGH. Sorry to be that girl, "blah blah blah" right? who cares! snoozefest!
You're probably not thinking that. I don't know though. I hate spewing out all this weird mush about my feelings, and things that are probably super personal. Who can i tell if not you guys? My readers, who I am convinced don't exist outside of my boyfriend.
Anyways, I bought a halloween costume, that I was expecting to be so cute and sweet. Until I find out, I actually looked uncomfortable and strange. Sigh sigh sigh. Well, that is in the past now, the costume was changed last night and now all is well.
Besides that, I am okay. Turning 21 soon! Exciting? I think so. I am going to say it is exciting because i don't want to even begin to think of it as anything other than positive, I might explode. Work has been, okay. I have been feeling a lot of anxiety around work (when am i not?) and whether or not I am good at it.
God, today's blog has just been a big jumble of annoying things on my mind. Where is the positivity!!
I don't know. Look for it in the next blog!
See ya! ◡̈
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