Turning 21.
This is a blog I have strangely been dreading. I do not like to think about getting older and all that comes with it. Even typing it just makes it slightly more real.
All my life, though I would never admit it to anyone besides here. I have tried growing up faster than I should've. Always pretending to know better. Always moving too fast. Now, i am getting older and I want to go backwards.. I want to be a kid again. I want to come home from school, only worried about multiplication charts and club penguin. I want to be the little girl that sat on the armrest of my dads recliner for years, watching tv every night.
I will not do that again. I won't be that girl again. There was a last time doing that and I didn't even know! Take me back! Let me be there for one more second please!!!
I know, I know, "Marysela you are not going back! you are here and you must keep going!!" okay. okay.
Turning 21!
I am excited and fortunate. I am getting older, and changing in ways I never thought. I am learning, and growing. I am making new friends, and growing up with the old. I am so lucky and so loved! the same amount, if not more than when I was little. I am still the little girl I was deep down. I still look for my dad when things get tough. Still pretend to know better. BUT I am taking it slower now, and loving it. I will love being 21, like i have loved all the years in the past.
see ya and see ya soon November 5th! ◡̈
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