II.Shadows

Hello blog! 

i feel like every so often i yearn for writing my blog, and i do it consistently for like 5 days. I want to get better. I do. I want to try. But you know, I just get so consumed by crafting something extremely perfect and exciting to read. I guess i think you have more expectations. I say "you" but who reads these anyways really? Maybe that is the other part of it, like i don't want to write because i am just shouting into this void and no one is even seeing it. 

Anyways, maybe if i was consistent then people would check it out more often. Whatever. Right now I am in my summer school classroom listening to "How soon is now?" by the Smiths. I share this room with 2 other people. I use to complain about sharing my room with 1 other person but at least i could talk to her. Here the 3 of us just sit in silence like freaks. We also have gotten what feels like - absolutely no work done. I know that attendance was going to be super all over the place but truthfully it feels like a waste of time - but i am still relatively new so i don't know who to make that complaint to. I spend 90% of my day in my classroom on my phone yearning for someone to give me any kind of task. My other two coworkers do the same. It is so boring - but hey. I am getting paid. I will not look this gift horse in the mouth. It is just a lot of "i can't do this until I do this but i can't do that until this is done" and they are kind of all things out of my control? I brought some stuff to work on my letter to hailey, so today i will hopefully have something to do. 

OMG! Hailey just got engaged! that is definitely an update for you guys! I am so unbelievably happy for her. You do not understand you guys, she is the kindest most pure of heart girl I know in the entire world. I literally am constantly in awe of her. You don't know how excited i am for this girl. Her FIANCÉ is named Dom (new character reveal) and him I knew before I met Hailey. I just remember everyone telling me he had a white girlfriend and i was always like .... mmm... white... (little did i know i would become absolutely obsessed with this diva!) They match each others vibes in such a crazy way. I have not met a sweeter more compatible couple. and they are going on 5 years. I can not wait for their wedding, I just know i will cry actual puddles of tears. Anyways - the letter will most likely be wedding or love related because ultimately i am a lover girl - so although not my engagement - it shall consume me. 

The Salazar family picnic is coming up. yippee! I am typically very pumped about this but a lot of people are not coming - boo! BUT this will be the first time izán comes to it anddddd hailey and dom! So i am super pumped about that! I am a little nervous to introduce my boyfriend to everyone cause they can be kind of weird sometimes but overall I am excited. I hope I do NOT have to introduce him in spanish. Also my sister is bringing her boyfriend.... YAY!! He is a really kind guy who really matches her energy. I think everyone will absolutely love him. 

I don't really have much more to say. Those are just some tiny updates for you.