It Isn't Perfect But It Might Be

 Here is today's question: When did it become embarrassing to be in love? 

I wrote this blog a few days ago and then i deleted it cause i thought "meh, what if this is too real?" which honestly, i really regret doing that because it was a pretty good blog. Anyways, I remembered it doesn't matter! It is MY blog, so actually i can say and do whatever i want! 

so back to my question. i am what some might call a hopeless romantic, i am a lover of all things love. I am rooting for love in almost every single scenario. Some like to throw dirt at romantics like me because we can be a bit naive when it comes to love. I am not naive, i am well aware of the reasons why some people do not care for romance, or finding someone. that does not however, stop me from being hopeful!

and this is not to dismiss the power of friendship, and platonic love. I love friends and the idea of finding a soulmate in your childhood bestie. I am simply saying, i love romantic love too. 

I mean, i have always been this way. I've been dreaming of weddings since i knew what one was. I am not ashamed to say that. It is lovely, the idea that there is someone out there who loves you, one person, YOUR person! 

You all know my boyfriend, well this year will make 4 years. 4 years of endless love! Our entire relationship we have encountered people who attempt to diminish what we have. Some have even tried to convince us it is all fake... why would keep this act up for 4 years you guys? come on. It's just strange. When we first started dating, we had loads of comments about how our posts must be staged, or that we were lying entirely on social media about how we really felt for each other? Isn't that so silly? If people weren't seeing us as a fake couple, then they assumed we had to be glued at the hip to the point of becoming one person. We aren't allowed to share a smile from across the room because god forbid, how dare we subject people to us looking at each other? We can't talk to each other at a party without some weird accusation about getting freaky? Maybe we can manage to be friends, and people too you guys? 

But this has been going on for 3.5 years. Why?! it is always something. We can't share a kiss without some kind of cringe, or say something kind without repulsion. 

For 3.5 years, I have felt like I had some obligation to water down how I feel about my boyfriend for the comfort of others! Almost like, I have to keep it some kind of secret? Why does love have to be hidden to be real? I would like to be able to talk about how I feel about him without any assumptions that I am either bragging or over compensating for some really bad relationship. Has it crossed anyones minds that maybe I can just really like him? As a boyfriend, and more so as my friend? 

AND let me say this - for every hopeless romantic, there is a skeptic looking them right in the face. maybe skeptic isn't the word, realist maybe. I mean come on, Meg March and Jo March. Charlotte York and Miranda Hobbes. Rory Gilmore and Lane Kim. Manny Santos and Emma. We can go on forever. 

The only place you can really talk love is with another girl who really gets it! normalize loving unapologetically.