That Funny Feeling

There it is again, that funny feeling. 

Another school shooting has struck.. 

How do you find the words to write about such a thing? 

In the last two days, I have seen a handful of tik toks. All saying something along the lines of "How am i expected to become a teacher knowing I may have to lay down my life for to protect these kids?" Long lists of comments full of people who changed careers paths, know someone who has, or is considering it. All for this reason. People telling stories about how sometimes they stare at their students knowing that that is a possibility. What an unfortunate thing weighing on the minds of educators and students everywhere. We should be worried about recess, and tests. Not our safety. 

I walked in to school this morning feeling a heavy weight on my shoulders mixed with a small breath of relief. The relief of seeing them there. Seeing all of the kids I get the lovely opportunity to know and then i am quickly reminded this is not true for everyone. 

Every time something like this happens, i am shot back into reality. We aren't even safe in our schools. A place to learn, grow and for some, a safe haven away from home. One of the last places you'd expect, yet here we are, and it never ends. 

I was going to apologize for the sadness in this post, but I am not sorry! I am going to keep it real with you always! This is what is on my mind today. 

- see ya ◡̈