Wake Up Alone

 Hello, 

First let me apologize for missing saturday. I know that I have no real dedicated readers so this apology is falling into a void but I am sorry, maybe more to myself for not doing it and following through with my commitment to blog everyday. 

I remembered to do today's blog because I was lying here in my bed, hoodie on with this big lonely pit in my chest and i thought "Let me do something instead of moping around" 

I sure do hate being alone. I know, I know. I am not alone. I actually had a very eventful day but there is something about a gloomy 6 o'clock in your cold room alone to make you feel quite lonely. I am sure you will come to know that i am definitely influenced by the season and the weather. 

I think a tiny part of me is feeling a bit of yearning, this feeling in my chest is hoping someone will reach out. I don't want to go on sounding very "sighhh notice me" so i will stop that convo here.. 

I got a tattoo today! It was fun and spontaneous, it fulfilled my desire to feel something exciting lately. It is of the star children from howl's moving castle, pretty cool. I got it more so because it is specifically 3 of them, and all my favorite people are normally traveling in a trio. It works for anyone i'm with. It was also 31 dollars, which is a big bonus. 

I haven't really shown it to very many people, i wanted to but like many failed instagram posts i overthought it until i hated it and ultimately archived it. I don't need to show it off, it is okay to keep things to myself! 

I am weirdly looking forward to going back to work tomorrow. I enjoy being busy and having something to just take my mind off of anything that isn't work. I need to be busy, i clearly don't do well alone and doing nothing. (hence the beginning of the blog) 

Right now i am listening to my "soft pink clouds" playlist, which is notoriously my most angsty one, and once this blog is done and put out, i will roll over in bed and scroll tik-tok until bed... did i mention it is only 7:30? anyways.... time for bedrot!

- see ya! ◡̈